I spent the weekend at a Benedictine monastery. That is not a first for me, but every time I
spend some time in a monastery, it feels as fresh as if it were the first
time. I enjoy doing this at any point,
but I particularly enjoy it during any of the special Christian times. Christmas and Easter are the two prime
Christian seasons, so those two times are especially good occasions for me to
disappear into a monastery.
I am not against Christmas and Easter. In fact, I am very much for them. After all, it is not surprising that one celebrates birth and the other celebrates death with a postscript about new life. Every human being negotiates these twin doors of life. Obviously I have come through birth’s door, but I also recognize I am in no hurry to exit through death’s door.
As a Christian, I appreciate the monastic setting for more unadulterated participation in these two seasons. By that I mean there is less commercialization and hype about Christmas and Easter. At least, that is my experience. During this Easter season, the monks in the cloister may well be exchanging chocolate bunnies and flowers, for all I know. But for me, all was left somewhere out there in the world as I drove up the drive and found my temporary niche in this community.
I am not against Christmas and Easter. In fact, I am very much for them. After all, it is not surprising that one celebrates birth and the other celebrates death with a postscript about new life. Every human being negotiates these twin doors of life. Obviously I have come through birth’s door, but I also recognize I am in no hurry to exit through death’s door.
As a Christian, I appreciate the monastic setting for more unadulterated participation in these two seasons. By that I mean there is less commercialization and hype about Christmas and Easter. At least, that is my experience. During this Easter season, the monks in the cloister may well be exchanging chocolate bunnies and flowers, for all I know. But for me, all was left somewhere out there in the world as I drove up the drive and found my temporary niche in this community.
I have been coming to St. Meinrad Archabbey in southern
Indiana for a long time now. Growing up
as a Quaker on my Indiana farm, I had no clue there were monasteries and monks
in my home state. In fact, I am not even
sure I would have known what a monk was.
In my growing up years, there were no monks, no Jews, no
Buddhists---nothing but some Protestants and one lonely Catholic Church that I,
certainly, had no idea what went on in that place. I was provincial, but I would not have known
what that meant either!
Growing up on a farm in mid-20th century, I
experienced a great deal of solitude and silence. Countless hours by myself were the norm, but
I would not have thought about it as solitude.
If you had asked me, I would simply have said that I spent a great deal
of time alone! And that fact also
introduced a great deal of silence into my life. I was ok with that.
Traditionally Quakers operate with some significant
silence. The Quaker implication was if
we are talking all the time, how could we expect to hear God speak? It made sense to me. And I am sufficiently introverted enough to
prefer solitude and silence to a big, noisy crowd. But I am no recluse. I like people and I like being with
people.
The monastery offers the perfect combination. Here I can have solitude and a great deal of
silence. But the monks have a wonderful
daily routine of coming together to worship and revel in the Spirit. And they are quite fine with me joining
in. When I show up, they are
hospitable. They care, but do not
intrude on my life. In a sense they
offer an exquisite space and time for me to explore more deeply my journey
between birth’s door and the exit known as death.
Is there a secret to be learned, as we go through life? When I first began a more serious exploration
of the spiritual journey, I suspected there was a secret. I was not at all convinced Quakers had the
secret, although there were some amazing Quakers who seemed to have found a
secret and whose lives were utterly amazing.
In my studies I began to learn about a whole host of others who
apparently had learned the spiritual secret, too. Many of them were various monks throughout
the centuries. A number of them became
saints.
So years ago, I started coming to the monastery to be alone,
quiet and to look for the secret. I
think I have found it! The secret is
there is no secret! At first I was
disappointed. And later I realized I am
quite relieved. Let me explain.
There is no secret because the news is spilled---the good
news, that is. The good news is nothing
but love. It was love that brought you
through that first door of life: birth.
You entered this world as a child of God and have been loved from the git-go. During our lives, we are tempted to mess up
things. We become independent and often
egocentric. We prefer talking to
listening; silence is deadened by noise.
We often prefer the comfort of others to the fears of our own naked
solitude.
And we long for life’s secret. Does anyone care about me? Does anyone know me---really know me? Does my life matter? There are so many “answers” in our savvy,
technological world, but none seem to be the secret answer we seek. Too often I am tempted to settle for
presents, chocolate bunnies and flowers.
I like all three, but they are not secret answers. Then here in this place I hear it again. There is no secret. It is proclaimed universally. God loved you. God loves you. And God will always love you! The secret is out.
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