My title for this essay is stolen from a chapter title in Sophfronia Scott’s wonderful book, The Seeker and the Monk. In this chapter Scott talks about Thomas Merton’s relationship with the young nurse. In fact, the chapter is really a story of Merton’s quest for love and, in turn, implicates the quest of love that we all undertake. In so doing Scott refers to Merton’s insightful little piece entitled, “A Buyer’s Market for Love.” (157) Scott describes this piece as the one which “speaks best to what love has become in our current society---an ongoing quest that takes us outside of ourselves and into a realm that Merton referred to as a market where we trade in love, looking for the best deal possible.”
Scott begins her commentary. “I want someone to love me. Whenever I read or hear someone say that, I
picture a person stripped bare, standing with palms up, the essence of
vulnerability. The image is breathtaking
in its beauty, frightening in its truth.
I think we all walk around like that inside.” (158) Her comments are breathtaking. I want to recoil and say that is not how it
is---or was---for me. But this would be
a lie. I agree that at times and, maybe,
all the time, we are all saying, I want someone to love me.
She is correct in naming
vulnerability as the chief requirement for love---whether we want love or want
to love. Without vulnerability, we fake
some kind of love. Most telling to me is
Scott’s insight that we all walk around like that inside. I know this is where it was for me. Having said that is to admit that I did not
want to be vulnerable. I didn’t even
want to appear to be vulnerable. And
where there is no vulnerability, there can be no trust. That is why so many folks resort to control or
manipulation. They want the fruits of
love, but without the vulnerability of trust.
I like Scott’s analysis. Since we are walking around with this inside
desire for love, she comments, “We clothe ourselves to hide this shame of this
want. Some even go further---they put on
armor. And they continue , layer after
layer, until no one can see or even sense the light glowing from their
vulnerability.” Scott is correct to call
our experience shame. Shame is the
experience of wanting to hide---not want to be seen or revealed. Clothes are the typical outward way of
avoiding shame.
Scott’s analysis continues in
intriguing ways. About us she notes,
“They hide what makes the lovable, all the whole claiming to want love. They put themselves on the market, a place
where, as Merton writes, ‘love is regarded as a deal…In order to make a deal
you have to appear in the market with a worthwhile product…We unconsciously
think of ourselves as objects for sale on the market.’” It is at this point that Scott aligns herself
with Merton’s analysis of this marketplace notion of love. Let’s continue.
Merton’s key idea is that we think
about ourselves as objects, not persons.
Merton writes, “We size each other up and make deals with a view to our
own profit. We do not give ourselves in
love, we make a deal that will enhance our own product and therefore no deal is
final.” To read this is quite
sobering. How many times I have “sized
up” someone! And how many times have I
been “sized up,” sometimes knowing it was happening to me and sometimes
unaware”
I am taken aback when Merton says
that no deal is final. We are tempted to
think that in the marketplace, we can buy the product and take it home. That is true for products, but we can’t buy
people and take them home. Oh, of
course, we can take someone home---or marry them and buy a home---but they are
not “ours.” They are not a product. Why is this?
Because if we view someone else as a product, then things like
commitment, respect and all the rest are at stake. I think Merton is correct. I don’t respect my car! To paraphrase Merton, we all keep looking for
new deals.
Scott adds to Merton’s analysis by
rightly saying, “this market is now digital and breathtakingly fast. In the seconds it takes to swipe right or
swipe left in a dating app, multiple deals can be made. But the swipe-right culture makes us too
quick to discard, to quick to judge.
While I have never made us of a dating app, I don’t claim
superiority. I am just too old. But if I were young, I suspect I would be
part of the swipe-right culture.
The word, spiritual, has not been
mentioned in this essay. But it is
deeply spiritual. It is spiritual if we
recognize we are dealing with human beings and not products. It is spiritual because human beings are
creatures looking for love. This is
perfectly normal, especially if we talk about God as love. Love is an energy and this is what we feel as
that desire. That desire does put us on a quest. Our quest if for others and, ultimately, an
Other. Love propels us to reach out and
embrace others and allow ourselves to be embraced by the Lover of the
Universe.
It is sad---indeed tragic---when we
settle for a facsimile, a reproduction or product. Instead of the marketplace, I believe this
suggest the need for spiritual communities.
But that is another essay.
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