In her book, The Seeker and the Monk, Sophfronia Scott writes about call. Even though I have thought a great deal about the notion of call and have even write a few pieces, it is good to take another look at what a call is and how does it work. Scott offered me a fresh way to take this new look. Scott’s book narrates a dialogue between herself, as the seeker, and the deceased monk, Thomas Merton. Since Merton died in 1968, Scott never met him. She only knows him through his writings and what a few older folks who did know Merton have told her. When you read her book, however, it seems like she and Merton have been best buddies for quite some time!
Oddly enough the context for Scott’s
consideration of call is a section about gun control. Scott and her family live in Sandy Hook, CT,
the city where the horrific school shooting happened in 2012. Scott’s son, Tain, was a third grader in that
school that fateful day. He was not
physically hurt, but carries scars of some friends who were murdered. Scott tells the story about meeting a woman
who was active gun control lobbying and demonstrating. Scott informs us she is not into big
demonstrations. She has this in common
with Merton.
Interestingly, when Sophfronia tells
the woman she was not going to be participating in big demonstrations, the
woman replied, “It’s all right. We are
here to do this work for you…You lived through it, and that’s enough.” (112)
Scott reflects and makes this statement: “This is my calling, she was
saying.” Interestingly, Scott adds to
this thought. “I realized when I had
responded to her earlier, I was speaking from a place of darkness and no hope. She handed hope back to me, a butterfly with
gentle, golden wings.”
Scott continues to reflect on the
notion of calling. She touches some
familiar bases. Often a call comes to us
that we really don’t want, as it did when God calls Moses to lead the people
out of the bondage of Egypt. We think we
are not up to the task. We cringe
because to obey the call is difficult.
Often it means that people don’t like us. In fact, once the people did follow Moses out
of slavery, the landed in the middle of the desert and began yelling at their
leader. They wanted to know why he
brought them to this God-forsaken place!
Moses must have concluded you can’t win.
All of us have been there!
I appreciate how Sophfronia gives
the woman credit for what Scott calls “a much-needed piece for
discernment.” She continues, “Sometimes
you answer a call because there is work to be done that others cannot do.”
(113) I find this intriguing. I too feel like I have been called to
particular tasks. In none of those cases
do I think someone else could also have done the task. But no one would have done it the way I did
it. In that sense my calling and
response were unique. I am willing to
believe that is why God calls us in particular ways and perhaps to particular
places.
As I think further about call, it
seems clear that we use that language of call to point to some claim that is
laid on me that comes from somewhere other than my ego or what I necessarily
want to do. In the world of religion
call typically is associated with God.
Even folks who are not necessarily religious sometimes vaguely can talk
about being called. They will use some
language like “feeling drawn” or “compelled” to do something. The might allude to some “force” in the
universe who prompts them to do something.
If I follow this logic, it seems
clear that authentic calls come from outside my own egocentric desires and,
therefore, my call puts my self a the service of something other than my own
ego fulfillment. I think authentic calls
are other-focused. To obey a call means
I accept it is not about me. If it is
about me, then likely it is not a call.
The final thing Scott says is
something I probably should have thought about, but had never considered. She talks about callings in the plural. According to her, in our lifetime we are
likely to be given multiple calls. In
saying this, I don’t think she wants to imply that someone who feels called to
the priesthood, for example, is not called for a lifetime. The corollary is also true. Just because
someone is called to the priesthood, it does not necessarily mean it is a
lifetime call---even for a Catholic.
One important implication of this is
the point that calling is not limited to those folks who go into religious
vocations, like the priesthood and the like.
I have no doubt that some are called to be social workers and some are
called to be Sunday School teachers.
Calls tend not to be sexy, lucrative or roads to fame. Those more likely are driven by our
egos. In fact, calls are more likely to
put us at odds with some of our neighbors and place us out of touch with what
makes people popular. Calls are more likely to be prophetic. No wonder Moses said, “What? Me?” I can relate!
The last question I would have for
Sophfronia is one she does not answer. I
wonder how folks know their call is finished or over? This becomes especially true if we receive
multiple callings in our life. Maybe I
have simply ask the bookend questions of calling: how do we get a call and how
do we finish and get out of the call? As
I ponder that, I realize I probably will have yet another look at call sometime
down the road. But for now, this is
where I am…thanks to my friend, Sophfronia Scott.
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