One aspect of the art of spirituality is learning to pay
attention. As I learn to practice paying
attention, I am amazed at how much stuff is going on all around me that
generally I am unaware. I realize that I
am lucky to be around the kind of people with whom I pretty regularly
interact. A college community is a
crucible of activity, of ideas, of dynamics that are not always present in
other contexts.
Clearly, it is not always exciting. There is complaining, grouching, and whining
almost anytime you want to seek it out.
And sometimes it comes booming out of places in ways you can’t miss
it.
But as I have been paying attention, one of the aspects of
life around me that has become evident is eagerness. I realize I have personally experienced my
own eagerness. If I begin to think about
the times and the situations when I was eager for something, I am
astounded. I can push those memories all
the way back to childhood. There are
predictable eager occasions, like the coming of my birthday or the first game
of the new basketball seasons.
The occasions of eagerness continue through adolescence
right up to the present time. I am glad
that I now realize I can still be eager for something---or maybe even for
someone. I don’t have grandkids yet, but
every grandparent I know was duly eager for the little creature to come into
his or her life. And then when the
little package arrives, we are treated with pictures, statistics, names, etc.
So I began to think a little about the dynamics of
eagerness. The first thing that occurred
to me is that eagerness is like hope.
Eagerness is always about the future---about the not-yet. When that future comes, eagerness gives way
to glee or satisfaction. Or my eagerness
can flounder on the rocks of disappointment if that for which I was eager does
not pan out the way I wanted it to happen.
The second aspect I note about eagerness deals with
definition. If you were to seek the
dictionary definition of eagerness, you would find characteristics such as enthusiasm. By nature to be eager is to be enthusiastic
for something or someone. Eagerness has
a vested quality to it. Eagerness names
my enthusiastic interest in something.
It comes out in phrases like “I’m really hoping…” Or one will hear someone say, “I can’t wait
for…”
Eagerness is also characterized by desire. If I am eager, I desire something or
someone. In fact, eagerness often
suggests that my desire is impatient, as the phrase, “I can’t wait for…”
articulates.
I have to suspect that eagerness can be an appropriate
characteristic of my life. Of course,
there may be things for which I am eager that really do not matter. But there are other things---especially,
spiritual things---that I would do well to have some eagerness.
When I think about the ministry of Jesus, I often summarize
it by saying his ministry was all about the kingdom. Indeed, his earliest words proclaimed the
coming of the kingdom. Characteristics
of that kingdom were peace (shalom), justice, compassion, sharing, etc. I want to be eager for that same reality.
I want to develop spiritually so that I am enthusiastic
about those deeply meaningful things. I
want to become impatient to be a peace-maker.
I am eager to learn how to become more compassionate and less self-interested. I want to learn to care about the neighbor
whom I don’t yet know and the stranger whom I might fear. Somehow that seems more important than being
eager for ice cream!
I conclude this kind of eagerness can be learned and
practiced. I am ready to learn. I want to be that kind of disciple!
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