Everyone knows there are good days and there are bad
days. Sometimes we hear people say,
“life has its ups and downs.” We
probably learn this lesson pretty early in life. Actually, I think little kids experience the reality
of life’s ups and downs even before they have language to explain it. But they know it deep in the core of their
beings.
I am also sure that most of us conclude early on that there
is not much we can do about those “downs” in life. Of course, some of those less than desirable
periods are of our own making. We do
stupid things and pay the price. But
there are other “downers” in life that come our way and we are no more than
sitting ducks for malady. We get sick
and sometimes suffer. I know no person
who gets up and says, “boy I hope I get really sick today!” But clearly not a day goes by when someone in
the world does not experience the unfortunate sickness.
We know that not all illnesses are sickness of the
body. For sure, there are flu seasons,
heart attacks, and cancer assaulting people every day all around our
globe. Live long enough and you will
die. We all know this. We also know there are some illnesses that
are not bodily, but more psychological or even sickness of the soul. Ask anyone who is severely depressed and we
can learn this problem is just as debilitating as cancer. And I am as sure as I can be; there are also
sicknesses of the soul. Depression is a
psychological phenomenon. Its spiritual
corollary is called melancholy. That is
not a word one hears much, but it is real.
Melancholy is essentially depression of the soul. It is an aimless soul, a lost soul. Melancholic souls do not normally have good
days!
So is that the way it is and we simply have to deal with it? In some sense the answer is “yes.” Sometimes we cannot do anything about our
malady. It is hard to heal oneself from
cancer or get over depression and get beyond melancholy. Fortunately there are times of healing. But healing is never a guarantee.
We all know that our attitude has much to do with how we
deal with those “down days.” But I will
attest, changing one’s attitude is not always easy. I can laugh at myself when I go to the
doctor’s office. Frequently I am told,
“don’t worry.” “Too late,” I say, “I’m
already worried!” It is as if my
attitude slips right out of my control.
Without knowing how it happened, my attitude has me!
There is one alternative that I always find helpful. It is a spiritual move. I know I can always do it, even if I also
know it is not magical. It won’t
necessarily heal me. It may not even cause
an attitudinal change. It makes me feel
better. And more importantly, it always
gives me hope. I was reminded of all of
this when I read the morning lectionary and found these refreshing words from
Psalm 36.
Psalm 36 opens with some depressing words about human beings
facing evil and hard times. But by the
middle of the Psalm, we find this wonderful spiritual imagery. The first line affirms, “How precious is your steadfast
love, O God!” When we are having
one of “those days,” it is refreshing to know that God’s steadfast love is
there. To me this means ultimately
things will be ok. Ultimately there is
only healing and wellness.
The
next line always makes me smile. The
Psalmist assures me that “All people may take refuge in the shadow of your
wings.” If it is “all people,” then I am
included. I can’t lose. I cannot be discounted. If I am sick, depressed or melancholic, it
does not matter. I get to slide under
those divine wings, too. I can be safe
and secure. Ultimately I am out of
harm’s way.
The
next couple lines add more fascinating imagery.
We move from under the divine wings to the house. The Psalmist is exuberant when he says, “They
feast on the abundance of your house, and you give them drink from the river of
your delights.” That complex line is
brimming with imagery. The verb is
“feast.” Feasting is not usually the
verb of sickness. We get to feast on the
abundance of the divine house. It is as
if God throws open the door to the mansion and says, “Come in…it’s all yours!
And
if we want to go out back, then we can drink from the river of God’s
delights. Talk about a deal! Feasting and drinking become more than we can
imagine. But it is true.
Finally
there is yet another dramatic imagery shift.
The Psalmist says of God, “For with you is the fountain of life; in
your light we see light.” Now we are
promised the very fountain of life.
Sickness often feels like desert and aridity. We are taken to desolate places of body and
soul. And yet, in this very place we are
given the wonderful imagery of the fountain of life and light from the very
Light Itself. For this light I am always
grateful. Sometimes it is literally the
promise of help in the middle of my hell.
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