On my good days I like to think I am on a spiritual
journey. I feel more comfortable putting
it this way, rather than saying I am spiritual.
Simply to say I am spiritual seems arrogant to me. I would say that I know some people whom I
consider to be spiritual. I look at
their lives and actions and it is a no-brainer.
I even know a couple folks who can be seen as spiritual masters. I feel like I am on the other end. Some days I feel engaged on the journey. Other days I am not sure I have even begun.
Two elements are necessary for a consistent spiritual
journey. They are simple elements, but
are necessary. The first element is
commitment. Commitment includes the
initial “yes” to a relationship with God.
And then it is locking in that “yes” in a daily living out of the
relationship. This is where the second
element comes into the picture. That
element is discipline. Discipline is the
means by which we live out the “yes” in our daily lives.
When I do not feel like I am on a spiritual journey, I check
these two elements. I ask whether my
commitment has waned? Has it become
lukewarm or half-hearted? Do I need to
re-commit? Re-commitment is not an
unusual step in long-term relationships. This would be true with people and,
I’m confident, with God, too. To
re-commit should not be an embarrassment.
Rather it should be seen as a new opportunity. To re-commit does not mean I have failed; it
means I exercise my will to get back at it.
That’s good news!
Discipline is a very different category than
commitment. I think of commitment more
like an event. It is a decision. It happens.
I do not get up every morning and decide whether to be committed to the
people and things to which I was committed yesterday. Typically, commitments are “made” and they
stay that way. Even if I begin to see a
commitment wane, it usually does it over time.
Discipline for me often has to be re-decided. I have long had the discipline to
exercise---usually run. But discipline
does not mean I automatically do it. I
have to re-decide to do it today and will have to do it again tomorrow.
Discipline does not have to be hard. But it does have to be consistent. Perhaps that is where my discipline of
exercise is different than my spiritual discipline. For whatever reason, I have always felt like
the physical exercise was easy.
Spiritual discipline has always required a higher level of
intentionality. I have to monitor that
spiritual discipline.
I don’t think I am unusual.
Too often for Christians, spiritual can mean some beliefs. I can say I believe in God or in Jesus. Too many times, we assume belief is
enough. We get lazy in assuming if I
believe correctly, then I have a relationship with God or Jesus. That is all there is to it. If I don’t change my belief, my relationship
is intact and healthy.
As I type those last lines, I know that is not true. Of course, I am not against beliefs. But simply to believe in God does not make a
relationship. That is true of God and of
other people. A relationship is built on
connection, experience, interaction, conversation, etc. I don’t just believe in my daughters. I have experiences, have conversations and so
forth that make relationships. The same
is true for grandkids as they come along.
I don’t usually think about discipline in this case, but there is a form
of discipline. And that is grounded in
my commitment to them.
This leads me back to my spiritual journey. I am confident I have the necessary
commitment to God. Perhaps it does not
feel as easy as my daughters, but that is not surprising. They are easier to see. I have their cell numbers and can call
them. They use FaceTime to connect with
me. I can see grandkids dancing on my
cell phone. It is a bit tougher with
God. I don’t have God’s number!
That is precisely where discipline comes into the
picture. Because I don’t have the Divine
cell number, I will need the discipline to practice the old, classic ways to
touch base with God. Ignorance is not my
problem. I know spiritual folks for
centuries have found disciplines like prayer, meditation, study, etc. have
proven to be effective means to sustain and deepen their spiritual commitment.
I know there is no other way. As far as I know, God does not do
FaceTime. But God is available any time
for what we might coin is HeartTime.
This is different than believing in God---as valuable as that can be. I want to be less hesitant and more constant
in my discipline. Wanting to do it is
the first step. Putting it into practice
is the next step.
I deal with my hesitancy by taking small steps into
discipline. Discipline does not have to
be heroic. Crawling is an acceptable
form of moving for babies. Almost never
does the crawling stage get skipped by going straight to walking. Maybe praying for five minutes is a spiritual
crawl. But it is movement. Even if I hesitate, I can commit to five
minutes. I am back on the journey.
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